It's My Birthday!

Yay! Its My Birthday! I'm now the grand old age of 20! Thats 1/5 of a century! Scary!

Love You, And Especially Love ME today!

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Findyourspot.com

Just spent the last five minutes discovering where I really belong. Findyourspot.com is a website that finds the ideal place for you to live by asking you what sort place you would love to live in it. Its quick and easy and you get 24 locations that would suit you. I know that I won't stay in England all my life so it's quite insightful to look at places I might end up! Here are the suggestions it cam up for me:

1. Atlantic Beach-Morehead City, NC
2. Paris, Tennessee
3. Morganton, NC
4. Mount Dora, FL
5. Crystal River, FL
6. Hopkinsville, Kentucky
7. Edenton, NC
8. Guntersville, AL
9. Alexander City, AL
10. Clarksdale, Mississippi
11. Clayton, GA
12. Mount Airy, NC
13. Deland, FL
14. Marble Falls, TX
15. Wimberley, TX
16. Gainesville, GA
17. Culpepper, Virginia
18. Hilton Head-Sun City Hilton Head, SC
19. Kerrville, TX
20. Conroe, TX
21. Brunswick, GA
22. Fort Pierce, FL
23. Beaufort, SC
24. Oxford, Mississippi

I'm a small town girl who loves the country and especially the water, whether its river, lake or sea, I need it there! Which may seem strange as I live in/near the city of London!I seem to be a bit of a Southern Belle by the results, which suits me as I do like the sun. Plus the accent is kinda Hot! Or maybe i've just read too many Nicholas Sparks novels or 'Gone With the Wind' too much!

So where's your spot? Maybe you will be my future neighbours!

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Its Been A Hard Days Night!

I have just got back from work and I am totally beat. Had to get up early and now i'm feeling it! Tiredness is most definately setting in. Think I'll spend the evening with Nicholas Sparks' 'True Believer' and probably watch 'Message in a Bottle' again. In a bit of a soppy mood!
Cannot wait til saturday as its MY BIRTHDAY! Though i'm getting older and I have already found 3 wrinkles (anyone know a good anti-wrinkle cream?), I'm getting quite excited. L and L are taking me out for chinese before we hit the pubs to meet up with N, R, K and possibly A and S, for a bit of a crawl into the wee hours! This will be the first celebration as the saturday after my gals at work are taking me out for a big piss up too! Yay! Pass me the Malibu!
Love Me, Love U XXXxxXxx

What A Bust!

Well shopping was a complete bust! I didn't buy anything except lunch - yummy pizza! We went into tons of shops but there was nothing decent to buy. However we did see these red 'Dorothy' shoes - made of red glitter with silver piping. Did see a yellow proper 50's dress but she said it didn't suit me. Might go and buy it anyway!

OMG! Finally met S's girlfriend. She's fat and horrid! Yuk! He could do so much better and I'm not just saying that because I like him! When we were talking to him he seemed really nervous, dont know if that was a good sign or not, his girlfriend being only a little distance away. Whatever!

XXxxxxx Love ME

Shopping, Shopping, Shopping!

Yay I'm totally looking forward to spending the day with best mate N today. We are going to spend the entire day shopping at the mall in Lakeside. Its gonna be so fabulous! I haven't seen her in quite a while so it will be nice to catch up and gossip! Gonna spend lots of money too! Yay! Its hard being fabulous!
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Ps.
How much of a lame-o am I? I just reread what I wrote last night and I have to say I was definately in a strange place last night! The news wasn't that shocking but I reacted rather OTT. Must have just been a phase. Now in the good light of day I realise it doesn't bother me that much. You can't help who you like and there are always complications. Thats life - and love! I guess I was hit for 6 more than I thought about the heartless K dumping. Guess I'm not as detached from my feelings as I thought I was! Friends are far more important than acting on baser instincts. So thats what we will be - Friends Forever. You learn things at the strangest times! Xxxx

C'est la vie!

Why is it that when I get attached to someone, something shitty comes along and ruins it for me? Am I masochistic and only chose men I cant really have? Or is it sheer dumb luck that someone more attractive comes along and takes them away from me?

Sorry to all who read my rantings but at the moment i'm on a bit of a low due to some very unhappy news i've just recieved. Maybe i'm not meant to have what I want - especially in love. Maybe subconsciously I dont really want it - I've been in love twice and it totally fucked me up for months afterwards. It's not healthy!
Especially for you - Look I know the situation and I totally understand your position (for God's sake I've been there) but I can't help feeling so disappointed. I always thought that at some point we'd be together but at the moment it doesn't look like we will ever be together like I want.

Oh well, some things are just not meant to be - and maybe we are one of those? As long as you are still in my life, even if it is only as friends, I'll be just as happy!
Love You. Love Me XXXX

Books and Movies

Just finished Lauren Wolf's 'Diary of a Mad Bride' and found it rather funny. Its full of madness, sarcasm and thoughts that you should never say out loud! Now I can see why people get crazy around weddings. A future note to myself - hire a planner! Do not even think about doing it yourself!
I followed that up with 'Supermodel's Beauty Secrets' by Victoria Nixon ( a woman who was apparently a model but whom I have never heard of!). To be honest it was actually rather poor. It was filled with things read in magazines a decade ago or things that were just common sense. However I did find out that if you rub your feet with neat vodka before a night of dancing, your shoes will not kill you - well, they probably will but you wont feel it, as the vodka numbs your feet. This was probably the only thing i didn't know beforehand. She has written a few other books similar to this but I am certainly in no rush to read them now, as this was rather a waste of time! Oh well!

Watched 'The Notebook' this morning and it was fabulous. The director really captured Nicholas Sparks' novel - the scenery is exactly as you imagine when you read the book and Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling were ideal casting for Noah and Allie. I cried when I read the book and I cried even more when I watched the film. I Love, Love, Love it! One of my fave films of all time.
Speaking of overly romantic movies, I recently watched 'Out of Africa' and 'The Bridges of Madison County' - both star Meryl Streep (a fabulous actress and an absolutely beautiful woman). I liked both of these movies - especially the male heartthrobs as co-stars, Robert Redford and Clint Eastwood. However I had read Robert James Waller's book and the film though very close to the novel just didn't have the same power to it. I just didn't feel the passion as I did when I read the book. Oh well, you win some you lose some!
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Pure Inspiration

Congratulations to all those who took part in this years Flora London Marathon. 34,000 runners took to to the streets of London to cover the 26.3 mile course today whilst raising a total of approx 34 million pounds for various charities between them. Amongst them the gorgeous chef Gordon Ramsey (his 7th London marathon - he's going for ten in a row so I'm looking forward to following his progress for the next 3 years - and possibly more!), GMTV's Andrew Castle and the Loveable Essex Nutter, Jade Goody (who admitted to only doing 2 half hour treadmill sessions and a bit of walking in preparation!). All those who completed todays course in the rain (the sunshine is no more!) are truly inspirational and show the Best of British. There is always such support for this great event, which attracts more and more participants every year, and it just goes to show how many determined, strong-minded and generous people there are in England - people that usually get eclispsed are celebrated more than ever on this fabulous day.

Congratulations to Felix Limo and Deena Kastor who won the men and women's elite races. GBR's David Weir showed paralympic power by coming 1st in the men's wheelchair elite.

Congratulations to all who participated, you epitomise the saying 'People Power'!

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Ps.

Happy St George's Day!

Oh What A Lovely Day!

There is nothing like a whole day of warm sunshine to cheer you up and give you that much needed base tan! Today was one of those delightful days!
I spent the majority of today just lying in the backyard on the trampoline catching the rays while delving into May's Vogue and 'Diary of a Mad Bride' by Lauren Wolf. It was absolutely fabulous. I feel relaxed and happy. I also have my base tan going which is fabulous - at the moment its still a little red on my nose and shoulder blades but i'm sure that when I wake up tomorrow morning the redness will be replaced with a subtle bronze!
Hope it will be the same weather tomorrow for two reasons - 1) so I can do the same thing again and 2) for all those raising huge sums of money for various charities by running the London Marathon which takes place tomorrow, as they deserve the nice weather for the great feat they will be completing. I'd love to run it myself but I smoke way too many fabulous cigarettes and haven't exercised since I had to do PE lessons at school, and even then I tried every trck in the book to get out of it! I'm a much better supporter!
Well I hope y'all had as good a day as I did.
Enjoy the sunshine while its here!
Luv Moi! XxxxxXXX

Recent Happenings

So what have I been up to for the last week? To be honest - FUCK ALL!
Well Easter came and went with no real surprises. I did get a couple of eggs but considering I work in a chocolate shop they were not recieved with great enthusiasm. Did get a book though - The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova. Hope y'all had a good time and didn't get too sick of the sight of chocolate.
Worked quite alot too, but thats obvious really as it was Easter! Though I did piss off this guy that comes back for the manic times of year and does a few hours. I needed to get on the shop floor to serve a customer and he was in the doorway. I moved him aside by placing my hands on his back. He got very stressed and told me to 'get my fucking hands off me! Dont touch me!'. Its was rather funny really as I think he thought I was trying to cop a feel - hardly! The guy is so vacuous and has the personality of white paint! He thinks he's such a god and sadly he is soooooo not! Rather funny! My friend was there and saw it happen and both of us just burst out laughing! And I thought I needed to get over myself!
What else have I been up to? Well, I've been doing quite a bit of shopping and spending some much hard earned cash! What have a bought I hear you cry?! Jeans, Converse, some really pretty summer dresses, tops in various colors and styles, about 20 books and some spring color make-up. The usual, then!
Well, cannot think of much else to say! Can't wait to see the first pictures of the TomKitten born the other day just to see what all the hype has been for for the last 9 months! Angelina Jolie's is due next month, hope it takes after her rather than him as he's a skanky lookin' wanker!

Luv Me! Xxxxx

Postscripts -
- Get well L - I need you big and strong! xxxx
- Happy 80th Birthday to our Queen! She shows that you can grow old gracefully! X

Why Is He So Forbidden?

I really like him. He seems to like me. So why then is he so forbidden? Maybe its for the best, who knows, but it would be nice to find out for myself.

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Congratulations!

Congratulations to friends T and her husband D. They have been trying for a baby for quite a while now and they found out the day before yeaturday that she is expecting! It's still early days (she's only 5 weeks!) but I'm sure everything will be alright. They will be great parents.

Congratulations! XXXXXXX

PLEASE SMILE!

I KNOW THAT THERE ARE LOTS OF THINGS IN THE WORLD AND IN YOUR LIVES THAT MAKE YOU SAD AND ANGRY AT TIMES BUT ITS SO IMPORTANT TO SEE THE POSITIVE SIDE OF THINGS. JUST A LITTLE SMILE CAN MAKE YOU FEEL TONS BETTER. SO PLEASE JUST FOR ME, SMILE - EVEN IF ITS JUST A LITTLE!

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Blonde-ish!

Well I know this old news for some people as I had my hair done the weekend before last but for the rest of you, these are my new locks! Please ignore the lack of make-up, this was taken first thing in the morning with a bit of a hangover! XXXxxx I'll post a more glamourous one of myself later!

And You Thought A Post-It Was Bad!

OMG! Get this! I've been dating K since December, which for me is quite a record. Last heard from him on 30th of March! I assumed I had been dumped on Tues 4th so I took myself out to forget about all of it - which I so did!! ;-) It really doesn't bother me that K broke up with me, its just the arrogant way he did it. I mean, do I not deserve to be told that after 4 months he no longer wants to see me?! Obviously not! I wouldn't have cared if he broke up with me through a lame text message but being left to guess it for myself is a bit of a shitty thing to do. He obviously didnt care about me then! I think everyone deserves a decent ending to a relationship they invested so much time into. I'm not upset about the whole break-up as I had seen it coming for a few weeks. I get bored rather easily with men and his time was coming to an end. Also I couldnt put up with his constant tardiness (and I'm not talking 10 minutes or so, I'm talking about an hour and a half!). If I make the effort to be ready at a certain time, then I expect him to make the effort to pick me up when I'm ready. I think in response to his non-response a quick call to His Spineless Majesty will suffice in getting the point across that a true man would have the decency to tell a woman he no longer wants to date her.
Well, I'm bouncing back already (not that there is much to bounce back from - I wasn't in love with him, not like I was with D and M. There was a spark but it didnt ever seem to ignite so it was no wonder that I got a bored - especially physically!) and in time I'll find a guy that has a spine, who sweeps me off my feet and treats me like the lady I am!
Xxxxx Luv Me XXXX
And for anyone reading this that has had something similar (or the same) happen to them remember this key thing -

HE JUST DIDNT DESERVE YOU!

(Or me for that matter!)

The Great War

As I'm currently reading Vera Brittain's letters to Roland Leighton et al, I thought I would read 'The War Poets: An Anthology' as an accompaniment. The selection includes work by Seigfried Sassoon, Rupert Brooke and Wilfred Owen. Though I don't really read much poetry as it takes a good few reading for it to sink in and actually make sense, it was actually rather good. First got into reading about the Great War when I was at college when we had to study it for my final year exams so I read quite a few books on it and found out I actually liked them! Something I really didnt think I would! I read 'Journey's End' (RC Sheriff), 'Birdsong' (Sebastian Faulks), 'Strange Meeting' (Susan Hill) and 'Regeneration' (Pat Barker). I'd recommend them all!
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11/4/06 - Update
Just finished reading 'Letters from a Lost Generation' and had to say it was rather good. As its a collection of letters written by soldiers at the Front, you get a really visual and realistic account of the goings on back then. I found it captivating and really informative as i leart things I didnt know previously. Totally recommend it as its heart-warming yet graphically detailed.
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